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It's Funny How at one time life seems almost perfect but then you end up doing somet to make that perfectness go. Well i thought my life was going amazing i had the guy that i dreamed of having He loved me i loved him[well so i thought] Till .... you might of guessed it, it all crashed and burned to the ground it all ended for me and him and then he has the nerve to finish me on msn what a loser now i sure no the meaning of [ he was my night in shining armor but he turned out to be a loser in aliminium foil] Well here i am again typing about my feelings letting it all out. so i mares well tell you this

Well when i was going threw that emotional break-threw the guy i have known for a few years helps me with Getting over The 'break' Turns out to be a great guy he's sweet charming cute and really great to talk to he helps me so much also he would rather text me than his own girlfriend we stayed up all night till about 5 talking to eachtoher
it was great and one day i hope i could just be me and him [oh yeah im over the loser all b'cuz off this guy] and yeah im very thankful i know him

what i thought was love is now gone all the memories lost but still remembered he told me 2-4-08 it was finished. as he told me why my eyes just filled with water my mum said he ain't worth crying for but i don't care i really liked this guy

and now he's gone

'perfect'

Well as i would say
on the way to his the nerves kicked in !
i got there god he looked gorgous lol well we went up to his watching a movie he puts his arm around me i was happy to be there just me and him we kissed in between parts off the movie it was basikly perfect in my eyes went down stairs his sister needed milk lol
we walked all the way to the shops in the rain holding hands
we got back and watched another movie arm around me once again it made my so happy just to be with him
we got downstairs and went on computor for a bit we both looked at eachother he then tickled me i tickled back we had a tickle compation all the way to the sofa where we watched t.v while tickleing eachother Yet again i felt great
we were then naming eachother from the t.v Aidan . Homer Me . Marge lol
Went on like that It was such a great day

i just hope we can do it again
x

Love - does anyone aculary experience it or do they just think they do and either get their heart whipped out or it lasts well i have been with my guy since 10th march it's been going well and i am very happy with it everyday all i think about is him he's always on my mind but now we hae 2 weeks off Gahh !! but hopefully we come together and have fun just me and him b'cuz norm at school his mates or my mates never leave us alone [annoying lil buggers lol] well i love him and thats all that matters

i sit here in my small shadowed room watching mine and his convisation flash i click on it i see his face i see mine together that's how i wish it was just me and him alone forever of course maybe it will happen but somewhere in me i know it will not i could wish and hope,but know it will proablly never come true but that's the problem with me i never think positive maybe because if i think positive all the time i will get my heart broken or hurt well maybe this time i will think positive it might get me somewhere hopefully that somewhere is with him
he invited me out to watch a movie as i read it on the screen my body burst with glee i was so happy maybe a relationship will build between me and him but there might be a posible chance he will change his mind and forget about going out with me and see there again i think negative thats a poblem i will have to change so me and him could be together...
days after all i think about is what it will be like going on my first date with him will it go well will it end in tears all i have to do is be myself but do i really know who myself is i probally should but i have no idea maybe this date will bring us closer well thats what im hopeing <-- well of course thats what i'm hopeing Duh ..
well i will be writing more after the date you will find out if it ends will tears or maybee the best thing thats ever happened to me so far in my life .. Byee

GRR life ay lol
specialy love we all want happy ending !!
well i thought mine was about to come true .....
well. i told the guy i like that i like him right to his face and i thought we would hug me and all that but NO grr!! he smiled and walked off leaving me so confused i asked him out he has gave me no anser at all GRR i really like him and want him to be
what should i do ?